Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Audrey Karrasch Opens Up About Being an Artist and Being on The Voice

By: Audrey Karrasch


I recently moved to Los Angeles, however I spend at least two weeks out of the month traveling to Kansas City, New York, or Nashville to write, record, and rehearse my songs. It’s always interesting trying to explain what I do to people, especially in Los Angeles. I’m just one in a gazillion people out here chasing dreams. It’s pretty common for someone to say “I’m an artist, I act, I write, I perform etc.” The biggest difference between me and many other aspiring young females is that I don’t have a part time job, I don’t do ‘a little bit of everything.' I’m not a waitress (anymore). Plan B doesn’t exist. 

I’m a 24/7 bag lady flying from place to place chasing creative moments. I have had so many part time jobs and gigs to stay afloat in this high maintenance life of being an artist and I realized I am completely content being utterly poor eating ramen for every meal while I chase my dreams. 

When I had part time jobs my energy was compromised and I consistently felt like I was missing out on my calling. It’s not that I’m above working as a waitress, it’s that I can’t hold a job long enough without having to quit a month later, or without getting fired because I was in the kitchen writing down lyrics instead of taking orders. Whoops. 

One of the most annoying questions I’m asked upon meeting someone is, “What do you do for a living?” It’s annoying for two reasons: First, we just met. Why in the fuck do I feel like you’re interviewing me? My answer is either going to disappoint you, I’m not going to measure up to your preconceived expectation for me, or you’re going to be interested and I’ll have to tell you more. That leads to the second reason it’s annoying: I’ll start explaining what kind of music I write, then I’m asked what bands playing on the radio I sound similar to, if I’m “signed," and then that person will try and connect me to the one other person in their life that does music and I’ll feel rude for rejecting the invitation and being uninterested. 

That may make me sound like a bitch and maybe I’ll regret admitting this later. When I meet someone who is a mechanic I don’t try and persuade them to be friends with another mechanic I know just because they both work on cars. I think that’s a pet peeve for me because when I do share my music with someone and the first thing they do is imply I should meet their producer friends I feel slightly insulted as if the music I’m writing now isn’t good enough. That their friends could “make me better!”
Photo by Joey Lingad 
Last week in Los Angeles I sat down with a gentleman buy the name of John Payne (LA WEEKLY, http://www.bluefat.com), who is writing a bio for me. I had a lot of anxiety walking in. Telling a complete stranger what I did for a living for a lengthy period of time didn’t exactly sound fun. What was he going to ask me? How could I convey who I was just by rambling on about my routines for over an hour? I walked into the cafe after sitting in LA traffic for over an hour, I was mad at myself for being late (as usual), my hair was messy and I wasn’t exactly having a cute day. He greeted me and we walked back to a booth that was tucked away in a corner so we could have privacy. The menu was a little overwhelming and I couldn’t decide if I was about to order a milkshake or a burger so I settled with coffee. That was a good choice as his recording device would have picked up my sloppy eating and I was thankful l made that decision. 

After five minutes of small talk he pressed record and asked me to share my story with him. I began my normal script. “I’m 22, I’m from Reno, NV. (Yes, like Reno911)  I’m a singer songwriter. I write pop music but it’s a little alternative. I want to perform at the Super Bowl one day, uhhhhh yeah what else?” I was pleasantly surprised when he interrupted me after 30 seconds and said, “I know what you do. Tell me about you.” WOAH, you wanna know about me? I didn’t know where to begin. For so long being an artist was just my identity. I didn’t really know what to say. So many areas of my life I thought were ugly, embarrassing, or just simply uninteresting. I reminded myself that he was a stranger and chances of me seeing him again were slim so I fired away. I thought about 10 minutes would be enough and by then I would have either scared the shit out of him and we’d wrap up or he would be intrigued and my real story would be told. 

I told him about my childhood, my brothers, my marching band days. I told him about being in a band and opening for Paper Tongues and Neon Trees when I was 16 and how that night has shaped the rest of my life. I could feel myself starting to open up and as the minutes passed by I was beginning to feel like I was talking a shrink, one that I actually wanted to talk to and not one my parents sent me to. It was in that moment where the F bombs and sailor vocabulary started to fly out of my mouth that a young family sat down at the table right next to us even though EVERY table in the restaurant was available. I tried to put a filter on it because I didn’t want to freak the youngsters out. I wondered what they were thinking. Who is the odd pair next to us and why is she just rambling on and on about rock shows and why is she speaking with her hands so much and maybe she’s his call girl that he just pays to talk loudly next to him? Ha. Whatever. 

At this point I was sharing with John my experience being on The Voice and how that show made me feel a like a money puppet. I felt like my artistry was compromised while being on The Voice and I never experienced anxiety or self-doubt until being on that stage. The show did not portray me as the woman I am and even though I thought it was a great opportunity for exposure and a chance to break into the industry I’ve had to do a lot of damage control since then. I explained that my addiction only got worse on the show, at that point I tried to speak softly because I didn’t want to set a bad example for the children eating their nuggets beside us.

John was pretty quiet the first 15 minutes and as I started to open up I think he was shocked at how different I am in person. He said, “You are not that girl on The Voice." That was the nicest compliment. 

It was so refreshing to share with someone, even a stranger, my story. I think every artist should be able to have a conversation with someone like that, at least just once. It reminded me of who I am, how far I have come, and how close I am to achieving what it is I want. It’s easy to feel like I’m just playing the lottery every day hoping my number gets called, and that I don’t stand a chance at all. Everyone wants this. I have always dreamed so big that I assume everyone else’s dreams are just as big as mine and/or the same. Before I was able to embrace being an artist I’ve had to embrace the person I am. 

Suddenly all of my pet peeves about people asking me what I do had vanished. I had just shared so much with someone that was just me. It wasn’t for a television show; it’s not a reality cattle call. I don’t need to meet anyone’s expectations or worry about what people think of me. If people think I’m crazy because I’m an artist, good. They should, because you have to be crazy to do what I do. There’s some good in some crazy. My meeting with John at the diner was an eye opening experience. Plus, now I can say I have a new friend (hopefully fan) in Los Angeles. 

29 comments:

  1. Helps to have a millionaire Daddy. Be sure to write that in next time.

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  2. If her daddy was a millionaire, she'd disclose that. Once a hater, always a hater. Do your homework next time, homie.

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    1. You do know that her dad is a doctor and real estate owner, right? Dr. Craig Karrasch. How else do you think she gets by without having a job? Not sure why Kelsey failed to mention that...

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    2. Audrey is UBER talented, and it doesn't matter who her parents are. She's struggling like any tough young artist and I predict she's going to make it huge. Of course, nothing breeds haters like talent. Fortunately, talent attracts lovers, too.

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  3. You can't buy talent you anonymous dick cream.

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    1. nobody is debating that she has talent. The struggling sob story though, that's another story that kelsey will have to disclose.

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    2. Ex-fucking-actly!

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  4. Love this Audrey. Thank you for being real and for being raw with your story and with who you are. I've heard your voice and your music. You are such a talented vocalist and a truly skilled writer. All you've experienced and where you're currently at as an artist are stepping stones leading to the platform you know you've been called to. You're going to do amazing things on and off the stage, and I'm excited to see your story play out.

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  5. Well I had planned on verbally destroying that anonymous poster, but it looks like you guys have it covered. Audrey is insanely talented, and a true born artist. This article is just another example of how amazingly unique her mind is.

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    1. Audrey, keep sharing your unique talents with the world. Pursuing your dreams isn't always easy.

      People will always tear down your successes by saying they only came about because of someone else's efforts; while at the same time these same people will give you sole credit for any short comings you experience.

      Proud of You!

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  6. Look at me, I'm anonymous. I'm a fucking pussy!

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  7. Audrey shouldn't have to apologize for her dad's success at being a doctor or owning his home or office building. She doesn't get ANY financial support from her dad. She gets support from her Manager, Producer, and friends.

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  8. The studio for recording and friends offer her a place to stay. Besides, she procures sponsors through Kick Starter and dialing for dollars. Those that believe in her support her.
    Would you slam Taylor Swift because her daddy financed her journey to stardom?
    Shame on you.

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    1. if i ever saw repeated times where taylor swift came to complain about being able to quit her waitress jobs because her Dad was floating her money to peruse her dreams i would slam the shit out of her too.

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  9. I bether friends get her free plane tickets too. For all of her travels. I bet all her food is free as well. And all those nights out partying, drinking, etc...all free right?

    She has a ton of talent, but don't sit there and think you are sacrificing like someone who's father wasn't rich as hell. She knows how she is supported. She will just come on here and comment with words like "dick cream".

    Again, it isn't a slam. She just needs to be honest with everyone; cause it is a fact:

    Her. Dad. Supports. Her.

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  10. I want people to like me for more than my looks.

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  11. Ummmmm.....she didn't call you dick cream. Sophie did. And, if you'd get your head outta your ass, you'd truly recognize Kelsey aka Audrey does what she can in terms of odd jobs to help support herself. Oh, her free air tickets? Not free homie. I'm her mother and as a flight attendant she is a pass rider of mine. I do pay about a third of the price of a ticket. But wait, why am I explaining all of this to you? I know who you are and you DO know better. This is not the forum to continue to air laundry.

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    1. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie. Homie.

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    2. Hearing a washed up, 56 year old cracker refer to someone as a "homie" made me lol. Her mom craves attention, however she can get it, good or bad. Her mom is also not honest. She is on several dating/prostitution websites and always lists her age as 46. What a joke. Lady, you can barely pass for 56 with your baggy eyes and wrinkly neck. Nice try thou.

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  12. Trust me, people have to like you for more than your looks. Have you looked in the mirror lately?

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  13. You ladies are getting so pissed over this shit and it makes you look bad. Especially the mom. What kind of Mom acts this way to anonymous posters on the internet?

    Let them talk because who gives a crap. But, you ladies responding to the shit looks even worse. So what if she gets help from her Dad. Mom flat our admitted to buying her airfare to every city (despite being a third of the price) so that pretty much ends the debate on Audrey/Kelsey supporting herself.

    Mom should be setting an example for her daughters not showing tham how to act like little girls. Just my two-cents.

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  14. And/Or squeezed money from one of many way-too-old-for-her men that she dates. Where was mom then? gross.
    Her mom is a flight attendant? at least we know where she will end up soon!
    Audrey has no talent and unfortunately is not very creative. All her "crazy" lines and behavior are ripped off of movies and doesn't seem to get any new ones.

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  15. not to discredit her talent but it seems her ship set sail a while back now she's just playing catch up while everything is moving away at lightspeed.

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  16. Personally, I admire her drive. She's faced a lot of "no's" and continued to push forward. So the opportunities that she's made for herself are even more of an accomplishment! Keep it up, girl! Who gives a flying f*ck how you make it happen. If it makes you happy and you're fulfilled...then more power to ya!

    And hey- at least you know you're not some grumbling, judgy, passionless, mundane person who gets his/her kicks out of posting nasty (and creepily detailed) comments anonymously on the internet.

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    1. She really is someone to admire. 21. Drugs. Alcohol. Trust fund kid. Bouncing from city to city (and dick to dick). I agree, truly admirable. She does have an EP out. One EP. Took her 5-7 years to do that. The full length should be out in 2027. Be ready!

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    2. I said I admired her drive. Her personal life is that: personal. Is it admirable that you somehow know all this about her life? Is the bizarre level of resentment you have towards this girl for no apparent reason something you'd call "admirable"? Is it "admirable" that you'd plaster these details on a public forum with the intent to belittle her? Yeah....you're the very definition of admirable, buddy.

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